Thanks for the quick reply, and for your kind words! I'm glad to know this is normal. I'm new to the poly world, and I really don't have a clue what to expect. I think my sensitivity about secrecy is doubled by the fact that I'm a lesbian. She bisexual, and we live in the Bible Belt. So, due to her fears of being outed as bi AND poly, showing PDA isn't really an option.
I have definitely considered finding a new relationship, but I'm hesitant because I recently moved on from a long-term relationship. Maybe I should start looking anyway? Just to get out there and explore? I don't want to be with someone just because I'm lonely, though. I want to make sure it's for the right reasons. I really want an emotional and spiritual connection, you know?
Thanks for your advice. I really appreciate it. Everyone is so nice here! I'm so glad I found this forum!!