Waiting for the dust to settle but I don't think things are going to be okay.
So I got home, got a good cry/yell/whatever out while still alone. Lamian comes home and we are civil but she pretty much holed herself up in her and Seven's bedroom. A little talking off and on, particularly about the snake needing to warm up and taking care of her. I got home at 4:30 had my "grr" time till about 4:45 and then was okay until around 7 when I felt myself going into a spiral again, so I curled up on the couch and kinda pulled into myself to be able to have my composure whenever any talking happened.
Seven gets home around 7:15 and says we all need to talk. Before anything can be said I get made out as the bad guy with the words "don't worry she's not going to yell". I mention that I've been feeling like I've been treated like shit and before I have a chance to explain why I'm called selfish and am told I'm being a baby.
Lamian admits the only person she's mad at is Seven because he knew she wasn't okay with anything. They get into an argument with him telling her that she said she WAS okay with scenes and stuff done in private and she says he was wrong and they never talked about it. Seven tells her that he's done and she storms out with Darkeyes.
After she leaves Seven goes for a run with the husky. When they get back I give him a little time to himself before approaching him to talk. I state I want to have the chance to explain why I felt like shit and that it wasn't just relationship stuff but also how I've been treated in regards to whatever tension is going on. I mention the thing about being singled out as a bad guy, I mention not being allowed to have anyway to be upset because I can't go in my room or try to curl up and collect myself or snap. I mention the constant changes that just puts things even more a little box. Seven admits that the changes piss him off too but then tells me that he's just done.
So the rest of the evening is spent with me reading and him on his computer/phone texting. I tell him good night when I try to go to bed with nothing more than curtness.
I don't know what's going to happen when the dust settles. I don't know if some of his anger towards me is just being mad at the situation. I don't know if he's done with both of us (but I have a feeling that if it's just one it's going to be me because I am just the secondary).
Honestly at this point I don't know what to do. There's a part of me that wishes I never fell in love with him in the first place.
Woodsmith: My husband
Merry: Tig's wife/slave
NT: Merry's boyfriend/owner
Elle: NT and Merry girlfriend
Umbra: Elle's Dom
Pet: Umbra's slave/wife, Elle girlfriend
Domo: Pet's submissive