LR-thank you for your response. There will definitely be no rash decisions here. And you are right-this is a mono mindset. I don't know that I'm not mono-I feel like this is situational more than anything. I can't say that I wouldn't be happy in a mono relationship. This is part of the confusion.
And losing my parents-both very suddenly-has made me feel like life is too short to be unhappy. I have a poor family history health-wise. Many of my family members haven't made it past 60. Today would've been my mom's 54th birthday. I tend to take stock of my life's decisions on days like this.
franchescasc-33, bi female, likely monogomish formerly in triad relationship with:
FJ-36, married 15 yrs
MD-35, gf for 8 months
Currently dating SM, male, 40, monogamous