Not knowing what you do for work, but do you have an Employee Assistance Program (EAP) you can take advantage of? When my marriage was falling down around my ears, I found a counselor and got 8 sessions covered under my EAP.
I've been popping in and out of your blog sporadically, back when I was following Mono's posts intently (as a Mono folk, myself), and I hope the good days are outweighing the anxious ones. Hang in there.
Mono. Divorced, two kids (DanceGirl, 14; and PokéGirl, 11), two cats, one house, many projects.
My partner. Poly. In relationships with me, Xena, and Noa.
Poly. In relationships with Chops and Noa, and dating others.
Married, Poly. In relationships with Chops and Xena (individually).
Blog thread: A Mono's Journey Into Poly-Land (or, "Aw hell, there's no road map?!")
Slightly more polished blog with a mono/poly focus: From Baltic to Boardwalk