More messy feelings today.
So Seven left today. My ear is horribly clogged so all the upset about the following I was able to pass off as just being in pain from that.
1) I'm scared about the fact he's leaving for a week while we are not in a good place.
2) I feel like he's disappointed in me because I'm not doing okay with everything.
3) I feel hurt still because I feel like anything I need isn't going to be addressed with Lamian because he's too afraid to muddy the waters with her.
4) I'm hurting because the last time we were sexual felt like a good-bye and even though we both got to a point that we wanted each other yesterday we couldn't because Lamian was going to be home when we got back from the Shut-Ins (wouldn't allow us that) and there's no privacy there.
5) I'm terrified that since we aren't doing okay that while he's gone everything is just going to fall apart.
Woodsmith: My husband
Merry: Tig's wife/slave
N8: Merry's boyfriend/owner
Elle: N8 girlfriend
Ruby: Part of the Leather Family
Logan: Leather Sir in the Family
Arc: Logan's boy
Holly: Leather family
K: Holly's sub