I am sorry you're hurting right now, Cleo. I just sent you a PM, but wanted to say here that you really shouldn't let yourself feel stupid about it. There is nothing wrong with loving someone, and all you had to go on was the info you were given. At some point you will be able to look back at it and appreciate it without such pain. In the mean time, I am sending you hugs.
Hot chick in the city.
Oh, oh, can't you see? Love is the drug for me.