I think you're already quite brave for such an open introduction. (I did read the whole thing!)
I think this forum is an awesome place, and you can learn quite a bit by reading around here. I remember I was quite giddy with NRE when I found this place and it helped me calm down a lot.
Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own...
Robert A. Heinlein
Me: female, bi, (formerly hinge of a vee)
with FirstBoyFriend (FBF)(moderately long-distance)
and no longer with CurrentBoyFriend (CBF)(who lives in the apartment building next door)