I think it might be of great benefit to slow down as well.
I think it all sounds VERY confusing.
Having a clear idea of where you want to go in your life is critical in making decisions of this nature.
It's one thing to have a lover-entirely another to marry-much less to marry "eternally".
I wouldn't be committing to anything such as that without a good amount of time and thought in it.
"Love As Thou Wilt"