I've been in many committed relationships and i wind up cheating. I like being in committed relationships, but would like to flirt and have sexual relationships with others as well. I feel like I'm lacking something being in just one relationship. My ideal would relationship would be one committed primary, but free to talk to other men and maybe having a second relationship. I am in a monogamous relationship now, but i know he would never be open being in an open relationship with me. I love him and don't want to lose him.