Do you see where he's being unreasonable? He beats you up emotionally for NOT being someone else that HE fell in love with?
In previous posts you say he does not meet your needs
and now he's STILL using you as emotional punching bag.
To me you seem to be in the process of leaving, and gathering self to detach... but not quite there yet. Where are you in the leaving process?
- Emotionally? You seem sorrowful and in stages of grief.
- Mentally? You are.... deciding things?
- Spiritually you seem flat.
- Physically you are living in the home.
One word of caution... Please be careful. You are esp vulnerable as a SAHM -- do you have your own account? Because anything held in joint he could cut you off from. It takes both to get one or the other name removed, it only takes one to go to bank and close it entirely.
Right now he's being emotionally and mentally hurtful. Don't let feeling UGH from enduring that blind you to protecting your financial health.
You don't deserve to be treated poorly.
What would be the steps you'd need to take to leave this situation? Have you thought it out or need help thinking it out?