I've been poking around the site all day and and came across this thread
And wow! Did that really give me some things to think about.
I think at this point in time my focus should be on myself and figuring out what I want and just letting him be. He knows I am here to talk if he wants. I'm just going to be nice. It's just so awkward because he wants me to buy his nonsense about how he's capable of being faithful and I just can not believe that and I won't pretend I do.