Time to Move on
Well it finally happened. Me and gf broke up. Like I thought she wasn't that into me. I think part of the problem was that I would think that and then she would say or do something and my husband would say see I told you so. She loves you. But it was all not true. She does still love me but not romantically. I am one of her best friends and she wants it to stay that way.
The way it happened though was not so pretty. Basically he went over to her house for his night over there. She told him she wasn't really into me but was afraid to tell me. And she couldn't do it. So he told me through text. Not the way I wanted to be broken up with. Then he was going to spend the night because it was his night to stay with her. however all I really wanted was for him to come home and be with me. even though I knew it was coming it still hurt, and it hurt a lot the way it was done. she even told him to come home but he didn't listen and stayed the night with her. that upset me a lot. but it is what is is and its over.
so now what? now its time to move on. He is still going to be with her and I am ok with that. they both love each other very much and I want them to be happy. me and her have a best friend relationship and we both want to keep it that way. Of course me and him are going to stay together. And I am going to find someone for me. I don't know if its gonna be a couple or a single woman. I havnt decided. gonna just see what happens.
the past couple of days I have been more angry and cried more than ever. but now I realize that its time to move on and find someone for me, and I am very excited for this journey.