Umm, can we get back on topic?
That said I read somewhere that people with Aspergers have a difficult time letting go of something that offended them (in this case me feeling broken). So this wound may just take time to heal.
As for the rest, everyone is right. I have to do me and listen to what it is I want. Maybe I do want a relationship, maybe I just want to be single and have friends. Like I stated before, I'm not going to force love. If it does happen down the line, good. If not, no big deal. I could even find that a relationship is not what I want.
At the end of the day, I have to live my life.