Forever loving from a distance.
It seems like every time I start to develop strong feelings for someone something happens with their primary and I have to take a step back.
I understand that primary relationships come first and I will respect that until the day I die but it is really hard not being able to explore, develop, and express those feelings.
People tell me that my ability to fall for someone hard and fast is a good thing but most days I just really wish I could turn it off. I love feeling love, no matter to what extent and it is painful when I can't express that.
Just glad to know I will never have to take a step back from Phoenix. He has been so great in helping me deal with every emotion I have had during this whole thing, whether it is encouraging me to pursue someone or being a shoulder to cry on when my heart is hurting. I am very grateful to have him.