I understand what your syaing about self-reassurance and dealing with my own issues. Normally I have no problem doing that. Unfortunately circumstances, I believe, have changed a bit.
Couple more factors I forgot to include:
1. I have told her that I need a more physical affection and she has let me know that she is unable to provide that.
2. She cant say "I love you". If I say it I get silence, or "I know".
3. There has been zero interest to spend time with me since shes been back.
So bad timing I guess.
I believe I deserve to be loved. I am a loving human being and I act with integrity, honesty, and intimacy in my relationships. It kind of sheds light on the situation writing it down. I am not getting back what I'm freely giving out.