Originally Posted by SNeacail
Please go see a doctor about depression. This has been plaguing you for so long, it doesn't sound like exercise and sunshine will be enough to get you through it. I'm no expert, please talk to someone who is.
I was about to say pretty much the same thing.
Something is wrong, and you do not seem yourself.
and you most certainly are loved, in so many ways. Even by many of us here, I suspect.
Certainly not nice, not knowing how to help you out. But a doc may be able to.