my dog is singing along to my crying.
I ended it. It fucking hurts, really fucking badly. I love him, I doubt l'll ever stop loving him but I can't do it anymore. I can't expect him to understand my betrayal and how betrayed I felt by situations in the past. We haven't moved forward from any of the shit that has gone down and that's all I wanted before we explored poly again. Is gaining trust too much to ask? But he wasn't willing to do the work unless it involved his immediate freedom, which is tough to give without trust. He ostracized me for feeling the way I did time and time again. He resented my hesitation. It hurts so bad but I can't be in a relationship that I don't feel respected or loved anymore.