Dirtclustit, I said you sound like you might be suffering from paranoia because you sound like you might be suffering from paranoia, not because I'm ignorant or out to get you. The other option, of course, is that you're well aware of how a clinically paranoid person would write and are trolling for sympathy. As you are now heading so far over into by-the-book tinfoil hat-wearing territory, I'm leaning more toward the latter than the former.
Prove me wrong. See a doctor, ask for a referral to a mental health specialist and get yourself sorted out. If you're not trolling you're not rational.