It's sometimes difficult to find ourselves in the way people see us.
Life has its turns and its points d'attackes but, picking at ourselves as if we were a scab is one way the psyche stalls itself from realizing its potential.
I just spent a few days blocked off from life for similar reasons and going for that bike ride and just letting lose could be what you need! For me it was a quiet solo paddle in the Gully out back.
C reminded me rather forcefully that moping isn't solving.
It's just me, my ramblings and the elevator music in my head.
Me: bi, reformed wild-child turned mom and house maid LOL
Crux: straight/hypersexual, possibly mono?
BC: our son, 5 years
CM: second son 9 months.
Mouse: girlfriend! Status new, feelings not so much.