Mags - I forgot about the order of things in all of the excitement - sex, then snacks, then snuggles! I am totally making a snack tray for our next tryst!
Franchesca - Hello fellow Virgo! Let's organize something together immediately
I look forward to reading your blog, and thanks for your encouragement!
Elemental and I had some of the most connected, insane sex ever last night. I Saw God for sure, and it blew my mind. How can being with other people bring us even closer? I was full of questions yesterday, happy and inquisitive - my normal psychological state. Questions for Elemental, questions for Copper, questions for me.
I asked Copper if dating us was what she had in mind when she looked for a threesome - she said that it had gone beyond her best expectations already, and that she was super happy. She relayed the same stuff to Elemental when he picked her up on Saturday - he asked if she was having all of her needs met, and if she was happy and she replied in the affirmative. She's a more reserved and subby person in general, and isn't super forthcoming with her feelings verbally, so it's helpful for me to check in to be sure that she's doing okay.
I asked Elemental what poly brought to his life; he said that he has always felt that there was a lot of love in his heart to give to others, and that he feels super peaceful after being with more than one in a super intimate and connected way. He loves the closeness; holding hands, kissing, talking, snuggling, and of course he loves the sex - but it's not the centre of it for him. He is so enjoying Copper, their easy connection and her sweet disposition. They're going to set up a solo date during a weeknight next week, which I'm thrilled about; feeling very positive and happy in general about everything.
I asked myself what it was that I wanted with the whole OKCupid profile thing. I'm in a weird place with it - I have a couple of connections going on with gentlemen that are attractive on all levels, and am getting closer with one of them - we've moved to facebook/txting, and have set up a tentative lunch date for the Saturday after this one. He is single, an art director, ridiculously sexy, has a great voice (videos on his facebook page told me so) and is keenly intelligent. We have a natural rapport, and I'm enjoying getting to know him. He's also super curious, respectful and inquisitive about 'how this thing works." So far all I've really relayed is that respecting Elemental's feelings is at the centre of things for me, and that pacing might be slower than he's used to until everyone's comfortable and on the same page. He has questions about how involved he needs to be in our collective life - I said that beyond meeting/talking with Elemental, it's fully up to him.
My concerns lie in the fact that he has no experience with open relationships, and is single. In some ways I know that I'd prefer a married man who already was having the vast majority of their needs met. In some ways I wonder if I should be entertaining anything with men at all - am having so much fun with Copper, and am going to see Lola this weekend. I only have so much time, and don't have a lot of time/energy to invest in anyone else right now. That being said, I would love to have that intense sexual connection that happens in MF relationships, and I like the idea of going on dates with a man that I really like. Elemental had some light uncomfortable feelings about it last night - we talked it out - he is definitely more comfortable with me dating women, but says that he's going to work through it, and has no interest in double standards.
I'm just going to chill. Rooster has been sending me the odd txt, but I can tell that he is scattered right now, and I don't feel like I want to invest heavily in creating something with him right now. If the interest isn't really there for him, I'm not going to try and churn it up.
We'll see how long the OKCupid profile lasts - am starting to get overwhelmed as per usual, LOL. Might give it one more week, and then pull it again.