let me rephrase this..
the new girl motivated me to go to school with her sure.
But what I'm really getting at is that this entire situation made me realize that I need to be able to take care of myself, with or without these women in my life, that's why I'm so panic stricken and eager to get my education rolling, because either one of these situations could implode at any moment, just like any other situation.
If I go to school with the new girl, I know I'll enjoy myself and do really well in my classes. If her and I don't work out and break up in the middle of the school year it isn't going to make me rethink my decision to go and further my own personal growth.