I have to be honest, Muri. I loved reading this post. Just know that there are folks out here who are interested and supportive of your journey. It wont always be easy or perfect. It's ok to be hopeful and fantasize about the future, and you have acknowledged that you feel like you're way ahead of yourself. Certainly, A's partner is a factor. Certainly A's feelings deserve your respect and care. From what I see, you and your bf are doing this in a very good manner. Keep up the good work and enjoy what you have.