My heart breaks for you Jools! And for little Samson... I've endured my own losses in my life, but nothing can compare to the loss of a child. And there are no words that bring comfort... only that connection in your heart that over time turns from poignant agony to bitter sweet tears. May that moment come sooner, rather than later.
"Life is too short to always sit around worrying about the bad shit that could happen. It's a lot more fun to go start some shit of my own. "