Welcome to our forum.
It sounds like you have a pretty clear idea of what you want in life and are just trying to get there in a way that is fair and equitable to everyone. If Polyamory.com could help that would be great. Check out some of our threads and see what calls to you; post your thoughts and questions.
Hope you find a good base of grounding and absence of fear in this part of your journey.
Love means never having to say, "Put down that meat cleaver!"