This may not be the type of answer you were looking for, but once again, enough people dislike me and the way i communicate that i have nothing to lose.
What you need to do is get a life. Do something for yourself. Make yourself happy. I don't know you so i don't know what kinds of action items will work, but this is a lifetime thing. Your post is all "him him him i would do anything for him he's the center of my world how can i be the queen of his life". Don't be like that. Please.
I have opinions about this "our girlfriend" business and other things, but i'll leave it to other people to dissect that part for all of us.