I am not well versed in D/S relationships, but this certainly does not read like anything I have ever encountered. Is there anyway you can step away and spend some time alone with your thoughts? I know you are angry, hurting, and probably ready to choke somebody. All within reason. It is disrespectful on many different levels, so I would not blame you a bit if you chose to leave.
Ry - Me. Panromantic demisexual with a history of polyamorist tendencies. Married to...
Mr. Grey - The once distant stranger that I complement beautifully. DH of 12 years and father of our (3) children.