Yeah it does seem a little 'Boohoo my threesome fantasy won't come true...' pity fest.
Tough, I want an orgy with the whole cast of Law and Order SVU...I don't think I am in luck though. We don't always get what we want in life.
Counter, I think you are really cool and balanced, you are working through your feelings and being rational. Kudos! Don't doubt yourself, wait for 'your' connection, there is no obligation for all love to be shared ALL the time. To be honest it is rather refreshing to read this!!