For the record, it's also ok to not know the answers to these things now. This is all pretty new. Your feelings shifted from positive to negative pretty quickly, they could potentially shift quickly again, given some time and space.
Me, 30ish bi female, been doing solo poly for roughly 5 years. Gia, Clay, and Pike, my partners. Davis, ex/friend/"it's complicated." Eric, Gia's husband. Bee, Gia and Eric's toddler.