Thank you everyone.
Tonight we had a conversation about that guilt. I'm very open and honest with him, 100% of the time, but he was looking through my phone (consensually) this morning and I actually lied to him about something. I felt so bad all day that I confessed and he admitted he knew it, but he figured he'd talk to me about it later.
In my previous relationship, even having a friend who was a male was a big 'no-no' ... so, I immediately go back to the shame I feel over this blossoming relationship (with M#2 - yes, they even have the same name!). It's almost overwhelming, so much that I felt compelled to hide it... because I've either hidden my feelings or stuffed them, forever.
Jim, how do you deal with it? If you're much like me, how do you balance out those feelings? This whole thought process scares me. I spoke to M#2 on the phone tonight and I feel like I've done something wrong, even though I haven't. It's such a surreal feeling to me.
I look forward to being here. Thanks again.