I think that might be my very last concert on a Monday night! I am just too Grown Up for those kinds of shenanigans, it would seem. Definitely my last concert on a Monday night with a two hour board meeting at 7am the next morning! ZOINKS! I got an extra hot, sweet as fuck, double shot girlie-coffee-drink on the way to my meeting and put on my perky face. It did NOT help when they dimmed the lights for powerpoint presentations and droned on for awhile about statistics, but I did keep it together. I do love staying up late, but definitely not when I have to be a responsible adult the next day.
Great show, dinner with my girlfriend at her house, and had an impromptu focus group with her husband about my new website that I'm working on. Dude has mad skills and some hefty clients, and I was so touched; he gave me lots of notes, and I am totally armed to the teeth for my upcoming art and design meeting with my web developers this week. Thank the lord - the whole thing makes me feel a little nauseous - I just have so much information to put on the site, and want it to be a fresh take on the Frankenstein that my current site has grown into over the past few years.
Mahogany is out of town for a few days, so I haven't heard from her. There is a part of me that wants to be with her despite all of this unethical bullshit - making all kinds of allowances for her in my black and white moral world. I love her, and admire her intelligence, free spirit, ambition and beauty with near reverence, but it's just all fucked up in my head with this thing with her husband. Our relationship was nearly celibate, so I'm not sure what it is that I want, exactly, as I do want to explore my sexuality with women more down the line with any girlfriend that I'm with. Unsure how all of it will pan out - don't even know if we'll be friends, let alone in a relationship. I just know I don't want drama, and don't want whispers starting to circulate that I broke up their marriage - given that he doesn't know about Stream, I am worried that he's going to blame me for her leaving him. I know, it's ridiculous, but it is a fear, and fears usually are ridiculous.
Our date this weekend is going to be less crazy, as both Copper and I are going to be on our moons. We'll probably just end up snuggling and making out, which is a-okay with me. Even if we don't, I could make good use of a hotel room with my sexy husband on my own; just so unattached these days to things going any particular way, and that feels like some major growth to me.
I'm so pooped. Good lord. Am I finally getting old? I must be.
We had an interesting conversation at the dinner table the other night. I had been staring off into space, and had a really funny thought flit through my head. It must have registered on my face, as Elemental immediately asked me what I was thinking. I have a best friend (male) who lives quite far away. We tried for a relationship when I was younger, but it was lopsided and he was WAY more into me than I was into him, and it ended up plaguing his heart/life for a long time. In many ways we'd be a great match - I've always wanted to have a cafe, and he has those skills, and he's really good at what I do too - we'd be a great business partnership, and he has always struggled in relationship as well. The thought that flitted through my head was - maybe he should just move back here, and him and I should have a relationship too. He's not my type from a physical perspective, but one of my best lovers ever was someone who I didn't find wildly attractive, so I don't necessarily mind about that so much. When Elemental heard my idea, he looked pensive and said, "Why not? We tried with another woman.... maybe we should try with another man, and I like R. a lot." I don't even know why I'm writing about this, my tired-ass brain is way to frazzled to even be THINKING about stuff like this. Hilarious, hilarious life, how you pinball my silly little brain around.
Back to werking, werking and more werking. Hope everyone is having a good week so far!
Wherever you go.... there you are.
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