Talked to her for a while this afternoon. She says she wasn't distracted and had a good time. Emphatically said she wasn't talking to anyone else (early in the evening). For those not familiar with online chats, if you're chatting with someone else, it's similiar to trying to have two phone conversations at the same time. Not quite as bad, but people who are familiar with you will notice your patterns.
So, if that's the case, I just made the whole thing up. I guess. She said she still wouldn't be able to tell me she was ending a chat with me to go talk to someone else. She feels it would hurt my feelings. Which it would, but the not knowing hurts more. She can't relate to that though, so I have to accept it.
There still some unresolved issues, but I don't know that they are solvable. I'm a planner. I like to think of her and I years from now. She's not. She lives with us in the now. Part of that is my relationships don't end. Her's do.
I've got to find a way to relax. She's helping though, so we'll see.
Me: 41 straight male in a V with
Wife: Kay - mono female - married 19 years
LDR girlfriend: Susan - poly female - 4 year relationship
Stakes - very intimate friend
Ironically named Farmgirl - local interest