LR - I have no time to relax. I keep myself busy to avoid thinking too much. I have peace in some sense of the word. I am not at the point of forgiveness for myself. I am not even sure that is what I need. My crosses to bear. Eventually I will forgive myself, though.
Ups and downs. The story of my life. Something positive must come out of this when it is all said done.
Relationships can survive affairs, but if one is already lacking trust due to dishonesty trying poly may end up being a disaster. I am glad things worked out for you.