Such a lovely, lovely weekend.
Thursday night, I went over to Punk's house to hang out for a few hours. We spent a lot of time talking and cuddling, which was absolutely wonderful. He's been having a rough time with his own poly life, his partners and his wife. I feel bad for him - I've always felt that she's extremely controlling and self-centered. He's certainly not perfect, but he's got a bit of a tough row to hoe. We did some making out, and some sexy things, but didn't go as far as we used to. Surprisingly, I was ok with that. I'm still highly attracted to him, but really I just enjoy being around him, whether we're having sexy times or not. I'm hoping to drag him out to a movie sometime soon, but he'll be traveling for work a lot in the next several weeks, so we'll see.
Friday night I spent with Moonlight, and I felt fine and frisky and super cute. Ever since I've been dating Moonlight, my girly quotient has gone through the roof, and I've become obsessed with little feminine dresses and that kind of thing. It's a little strange feeling, but I'm enjoying it.
She hit a nerve while we were out at dinner, joking about me moving in with her. This is one of the ways she frustrates me, because I know she'd rather have me be with just her, and I don't know what to say when she makes these jokes. I cried, and we ended up having (another!) long talk. I guess when we'd talked before, I hadn't been specific enough about the behaviors that bother me. She thought I realized she was just joking. I do know that, but there's enough truth behind it that I get both guilty and defensive. She's going to try to joke less, and I'm going to try to chill out and not be so sensitive.
After our chat, we had a lovely snuggle and spent the night sleeping with our arms around each other.
My family celebrated Easter on Saturday, and I got to see all five of my great nieces and nephews! Oh, and the rest of my family too.
I was in baby heaven!
Sunday was the best day of all. Neither Fly nor I had any obligations, and Moonlight didn't have anything until late afternoon. It was warm and sunny and beautiful, and Fly and I ate breakfast out on the deck, watching the chickens. After a while he went to hang out with some friends to play his sport, and Moonlight came over to meet the chickens and spend time with me. We hung out in the backyard for a while, me in another short dress, sitting on the picnic table with my legs wrapped around her while we kissed with the sunshine streaming over us and the neighbor's dog watching us suspiciously.
The glorious make-out session was followed by a ramble around the farmers' market and then a trip to the nursery for new plants (I got 5 kinds of mint, 2 lavender plants, 2 kinds of sage, a lemon grass, and some other stuff that i really didn't need!), after which we returned to my house to drink mimosas with Fly. I love love love having lovers who are friends with each other! Even when they sit and chat about boring stuff like stocks and whatever.
After Moonlight left, I drove our new-to-us pickup, with her stick shift and lack of power steering, back to the nursery for a half-yard of soil so I could plant everything I bought, as well as my columnar apple trees that arrived in the mail on Saturday. I puttered around in the sun until Fly got home, and then we barbequed dinner together, just the two of us.
It's hard to wrap my head around my life right now. It's so incredible to have all these people who love me, the best kiddo ever (he was at his mom's all weekend), my little urban farm beginning to come together, and a job I love to go to every morning. On one hand, all this stuff is totally normal and real, but when I stop to reflect on my blessings, for lack of a better word, I'm utterly dazzled.