Well he popped up again.
I broke things off with my long term boyfriend in January. I spent alot of time grieving this relationship. I no he disappeared from the places and friends I know about a month ago after I first saw him in public.
I had deleted all his information from my cell. Yesterday, my phone rang my preteen answered said she didn't know a kyle and thought he had the wrong number. A few minutes later I got a text from someone else. I looked at my phone and thought I had texts from my sister. I was half way sick and didn't pay attention to the fact that there was no name associated with the number it was the area code and first 3 of my bitch sister. So I texted something about my child. Then I realized oops, maybe it was him and asked and he said yeah. He then went on to say he didn't think I was going to talk to him since I pretended not to know him when he called. I said when did you call. He said just a few mins ago and I said it was my daughter who answered. I asked how he was. What he was up to. It was very much nothing said I had to go give my child a breathing treatment. That night he asked how the treatment went I didn't answer as I was asleep. He texted this morning around 5am a few times. I was asleep.
I have a feeling he wants to do a fwb thing. I just can't. I know some people can. But I love him so much that it would hurt me to much to put myself in that postition. I can't have him in and out of my life like a revolving door. He doesn't seem to get the fact, that when he told me he wanted to go sport fuck and not tell me. I told him I couldn't do that and I didn't want to go there. It has to do with fluid bonds and std's and how I feel like it like it would be disrespecting me when he knows my issues with it.
He actually said, well you said you didn't want to talk to me for awhile. What I said was, I didn't want to see or talk to him again it was to painful. That we wanted different things.
I called my bff, she said he has a way of reeling you in and perhaps it's best if I don't talk to him at all. He reels me in because we have this string between us and I love him, I believe he loves me to. I know he wants to be free and have no responsiblities. After watching people I love have to have surgeries and die because of std's I just can't be this person who has a partner who has little regard to just free fucking. Other people can but it isn't me.
Now I wonder should I just block him. So so hard.