Have been reading your posts with a mix of admiration and sadness these days; going through this seems to be so hard on you, and I see you really struggling to find peace with feelings of abandoment and betrayal. It's mind-blowingly hard to try and let go of someone that you love as deeply as you seem to love Mono, and I can really identify with the anger and sadness that you appear to be experiencing. You are such a generous and vivacious soul from everything that I can see, and it makes me sad to see you struggling. Despite the fact that it isn't easy, I also see you doing your best to find joy, make peace within yourself, reconnect with self, and be present to yourself. I have a lot of respect for you RP, and just wanted to let you know that.