So, my poly-triad has definetely made its efforts to improve. They have made more of an effort to include me in fmaily activities and be apart of the life as a partner rather than the girlfriend who will leave eventually.
However, one of my biggest issues is about Sam's pregnancy, I do not resent her but I absolutely hate the fact that she has what I want. She is 36 weeks along and due soon. She has been doing more stuff to prep for Connor and has had it rough being pregnant. But she is pregnant and it continues to remind me of the loss of my daughter, Scarlet, back in July. Although, I have made a concious effort to get better about getting over it, I have found that I just can't.
Despite the pregnancy, Sam and I have definitely improved. We before were at each others throats and I just couldn't stand to be around her, even when I swore I loved her. And I do. Her and I have had more A+S time which has been a much needed effort for us. Being able to strengthen our part of the triad has been hard but it has defintely been worth it. So that is definitely a positive
And we have had more poly dates. To the drive in, Royal Rumble, Bowling. Just really has been shifting us for the better.
But that's where it brings me to Glenn. Him and I just... I don't know. Him and I used to be soo good and now we are at odd's all the time. I am starting to realize how much of a jack ass he can be. And I left to stay at my mothers for 5 days, the week of his birthday. (No, I did not miss his birthday) And even while I hadn't seen him we fought. And then when I cam back, we fought even more. We had one good day out of the folowing 5 days. And that was the day of our 6 month anniversary. It seems as if him and I are at odd's and I want to know how to get my love back with him and how to strengthen it. I don't know what I have done wrong but it would be nice to know what I can do right.