Thanks you two, I hadn't really seen other people addressing that before - so while I'm glad I'm not alone it's also too bad that its so easy to feel bad about good things!
And Hot Ethics...that sums it up. I've just never really seen it from anyone in real life before in such great quantities... when that stuff comes out of my mouth to people I always assume they translate it as "wow she over-thinks and talks a lot"
but I feel so much better about myself when I stick to my word and try to make sure everyone's feelings are being considered. But crap... now I'm getting preoccupied thinking about our date next week.