I am afraid. When my bf finds out, what if he freaks out at try to hurt me or #2?
I know that would have happened if my X had the chance.
That is a WHOLE other thing if you are in danger. Or worried that your BF would attack the other guy to get "even" with you and hold it over your head to control you.
You could not be in a relationship that creates fear to this level in you. Fear of being hurt in body, mind, heart, or soul. Abuse is not always hitting.
You could choose to just end it rather than live in fear. Do NOT be friends with an abuser.
However the leaving time is the dangerous time, so taking the time to leave well so you STAY safe is important. You might think about making a domestic violence safety plan.
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Please be safe.