Originally Posted by ManofDiscovery
Although I'm a man, you have pretty much described my previous relationship history - at least in terms of the feeling that something wasn't quite right in mono relationships, and having to hide certain things that I was doing, and feeling guilty about that.
I am currently at the stage where I'm putting myself out there more in terms of 'I am poly...who's interested' (not exactly in those words).
It's an interesting journey so far (albeit having taken only one step).
I haven't quite even gotten that far, so I give you a lot of credit for putting yourself out there! I think that I might be stuck with feeling out of place in a monogamous relationship, because I feel happy with the boyfriend I'm with. However, the problem is when I meet people I grow feelings for I have to either force myself to hide those feelings, or lose that person from my life. I've twice went behind my boyfriend's back and gotten close to others, one being my (was) best friend. So, things are really tough. I almost hope this is a phase, but I highly doubt it.