Let it lie.
Grief is a tough one to measure, but in general, let it be. Time will heal the sharpest pain, and more time will soothe the lasting aches. I know its tough, but things will return to where they are right. They always do, it sometimes just takes longer than you want them to.
Stay strong, and keep on writing, it can be extremely cathartic.
Life is all about connections. Love is infinite. Spread the wealth.