So I got sent into a tizzy recently by something that might or might not have happened.
My ex posted something on Valentine's day that made me wonder if she had fallen in love again. Then she called me same day for something work related and mentioend she had personal news to tell him. Hmmm. So I assume that she will tell me that she's fallen in love again.
I felt like a loser. And angry she brought this up on Valentine's Day! (Yes, irrational I know.) We're not in competition. I want her to be happy, to find someone who loves her. She deserves that. We are never getting back together to use that annoying song.
She didn't call back on Valentine's day but left a message Friday. I haven't called her back yet on purpose.
I texted a few friends with my ranting about this. They properly sympathized and rationally pointed out it may not be that she is in love at all. Might be something else entirely. All true. But that is not what my intuition tells me.
So had a bit of a freak out about it. I have many regrets about my marriage. Things I wish I had done differently. It's one of the few things in my life that I have regrets around. I generally try to live my life with as few regrets as possible. And now that I know what I know about how our relationship fell apart and my role in that (it's not all on me but I am fair from blameless, that's for sure), I know things not to do.
So it threw me for a loop. I haven't called her back yet. Maybe I will do that tonight but probably not. I am feeling better about it. Spending Valentine's Day with Whip really helped with that. And a generally awesome weekend helped too.
So I am better. But weird how things throw us for a loop sometimes.