In the beginning no. I've come along way since then. Not going to lie I'm one of those women who thinks their husband is the man every woman would bend over backwards to have. I don't view myself like that at all, but that's one of my own personal battles. I have low self esteem. It's haunted me my whole life, my sister was the pretty one and I was the funny one. I know I have a kick ass personality, I never doubt how people feel about me after they know me but I don't think I'm a person most people are instantly attracted to soooo to have a woman, especially a seemingly straight woman suddenly want me, no that didn't seem plausible.