Valentine's Day anxiety
And I don't know how to deal with it.
Part 1) First Valentine's Day when I have two serious relationships going on. So that's excited anxiety but it still gets translated by my body and mind as generalized bad anxiety.
Part 2) I'm still poor. And because of that I don't know what I can do with or go to with either boy for something for us to just have between tomorrow and Sunday (because I know that things for everyone in the family being able to be done on V-Day is impossible). And that breaks me because I want to have something that we are able to do for the day and I don't know what to do.
On another note I guess things with Dys never worked out well. We had our lunch date which went well enough that neither of us realized that we had spent 4 hours together but even when I've sent messages to her no reply. It happens. Now I guess to see if another girl I like wanders my way.
Tomorrow is going to suck. And I don't even know if I can mention it to anyone in the family, or how.
Woodsmith: My husband
Merry: Tig's wife/slave
N8: Merry's boyfriend/owner
Elle: N8 girlfriend
Ruby: Part of the Leather Family
Logan: Leather Sir in the Family
Arc: Logan's boy
Holly: Leather family
K: Holly's sub