I just want everyone to know that I have been reading your responses throughout my day and gaining strength and clarity from them. I have never been part of an online forum before but it is an amazing feeling to get such incredible support from so many people that haven't even met me. I think I am in good and understanding hands.
I want to sit down and give a proper response to some things as well as relate where I am at now but the day has not left me time. I will make sure this happens tomorrow after work. Stay tuned.
For now, I will tell you that I am feeling far less confused and gaining a lot of my initial strength back. Thank you for helping me make that happen. It means so much to know that I am not alone and not crazy. I don't feel crazy anymore.