Welcome iluvawhooty810 ...
... from another person who lived in Michigan for quite a few years. Hope you are enjoying your stay on our site so far.
Sounds like you are definitely looking for a polyamorous relationship. When you said, "Not just for sex, but for love. Emotions, the bond, an connection," I identified with that.
I am sure you will learn a lot here and make many new friends. Sorry your last attempt at poly didn't work out, but you will have better luck in the future. Is it just you and your ex Gf right now?
It's good to have you aboard.