Welcome to our forum.
They don't teach us about polyamory when we are kids; we are very steeped in the doctrines of exclusive monogamy. So polyamory is going to feel strange to you for awhile. It will take awhile to wash away that monogamous conditioning.
Not that monogamy is some terrible thing; it's just that it's not the *only* thing, and that's what we're not taught as kids. Conditioning doesn't go away quickly, even when you're conscious of it.
I am certain you will find many opportunities to make new friends here, and get advice and feedback. Have a look around, and see what threads call to you. Post any thoughts or questions you may have.
It's good to have you aboard.
Love means never having to say, "Put down that meat cleaver!"