The purpose of this post, the part that my laptop didn't post was where I was asking if there was anyone who understood what it felt like, and it is affecting my polyfidelitous relationship due to the fact that I cannot be close with my girlfriend because she is pregnant and she is farther along in the pregnancy than I made it. It hasn't even been a year since I lost my daughter. So, the purpose of the post is wondering if anyone has been in this situation, if they know if it gets easier or harder to deal with. And if anyone has ever dealt with the loss of a child. Because it takes a toll on my mental state. I was just needing advice on how to further the healing process as well as still keep my relationship with my girlfriend in the Poly, in tact.