Sorry. I guess I am still overwhelmed a bit and somewhat scared. I do not like to go out and try to find people. I have been hurt very badly before (yes I know a lot of people have) and I am just terrified. I thought I had found someone for the long run. Now I have to get back out there and look.
I was almost killed by an abusive ex and that just traumatized me. If it weren't because my husband does not have sex with me I would not need anyone else. My husband has become very asexual and that has been something very difficult to deal with. I accept him how he is and do not force myself on him.
I just wish this were easier... sorry