I think certainly that if I can manage to love while knowing it probably will be lost and then deal with the loss without it stopping me from loving again, then maybe it will be fine to go through life without a husband and children.
I do hope so because I have no intention of getting married or having children.
Maybe it could be seen as freeing? There is no safe way to set up life so I (and any one of us) are free to do it the way we want.
All lives will have their sad periods and their happy ones regardless of how they are structured and so I can life as I want without blaming myself for making bad choices just because I don't choose to do what's expected of me as a woman. I very much hope that I can keep this in mind as I go on through this grief.