Welcome to our forum.
I'm sure you will find many opportunities to converse with the various people on this site, and get some good feedback. Have a look at our many threads and see what calls to you. Use the search and tag search options. Post any thoughts or questions you'd like to share.
Even if you're feeling somewhat pessimistic at the moment, your descriptions of your relationships said to me that you have a very positive thing going, and much to be hopeful for. Just try to work out the conflicts in tiny bites. So as not to "eat the whole elephant at once."
I am wishing you the best of luck and love, and hope you will post often.
Love means never having to say, "Put down that meat cleaver!"